like being hit by a bullet

this is what i feel today..
well,not just today..
its alrdy been weeks since i feel this way..
so hurt..so damage..so lost..
and its getting worse day by day..
why i stil cant let it go.?
why i stil let it hurt me.?
the wound keep bleeding each day..seems like it dont want to heal..
there is no one to blame but myself..coz stil hold onto it..
i am pathetic right.?
yup..feel myself so pathetic now..
dear Almighty,give me some strength,please..